I know it’s stupid to ask a cult but, what the fuck do I do when I love my best friend?? I know for a FAct that it’s nOt a crush, it’s been 3 fucking YeArs and the goddamn feeling won’t go awAy. I already confessed a few years ago and I got best friend-zoned ( ；∀；) worst part, she might be straight. How the fUck do I get over her?
This is going to be a weird reply but here goes:
So I have had been in the same situation for more that two years and fuck was it crap but I didn't like it and honestly that just was the start of a never ending shit-hole of self-hatred for why I was feeling this ,so I always made sure that I was somehow and in someway looking gay towards my Bestfriend....now let me rephrase that. I would make jokes or say I'm gay indirectly to her so that she would somehow know who I was and not be to shocked if I did come out to her and oh so later on when I did come out she was fine with so that was an stepping stone for hope.....or so I thought. The feeling just kept getting worser and worser especially knowing that she was straighter than a line segment and to a point were I can't even talk to her online or in real life without feeling despair. So that was it and that was all for me to handle I thought, when I mean by that was that I literary just went online and expressed all my feelings to her in detail and then ended the conversation with that I needed some space and that I don't want to be her friend anymore because my shitty despair will only grow more and I don't need or want that. She was not surprised and she said okay just like that, it has been more 6-7 months since that incident and fuck was it a crappy experience and yes, I do think about it but I do feel much more better than I did couple of months back.
Now that was my experience and when I do say this I do not mean that this will every time or for your situation so please don't take that way. I wish you bundles of hope in your situation hope you do get over it. Remember a little despair is needed hope to cherish ❤️